As a little girl, I wanted to grow up and become a writer. It seemed more like a pipe dream than a real possibility, so I entered college as a business major, because that seemed the sensible thing to do, but I hated it. So I changed my major again…and again, until I finally gave in and became an English major in my junior year, cramming to finish on time.
I graduated and reality struck. What am I supposed to do now? So I went for my master’s degree. Then I met a boy, got a job in the customer service industry, and put my degrees on a shelf. While I loved the relationship of customer service which put me in the position to be able to help people, I didn’t love the business side that was always looking for ways to increase profit and shorten interaction time with customers. So I left to help my fiance, now husband, start his new business, while also working part time as a bookkeeper. I took time off from bookkeeping for our wedding at the end of July, and when I came back, I found I was no longer needed at work, at least for the time being, due to the company’s lack of growth.
I’ll admit I was devastated. While I don’t love bookkeeping, I did want a job. We are living in a rural area so finding another job would be difficult. I didn’t know what to do, but I felt the need to be doing something and to be contributing financially to our life together. My dear husband had the answer – write! He knew I had wanted to do so for so long, had talked of it, dreamed of it, and had stored up words in my heart. Now was the time. I didn’t have all the obstacles (cough…excuses…cough) that had always kept me from writing. When I had tried to blog or write in the past, I always ended up too busy to really focus. The few posts I did get up were often hastily composed and I was never very confident in their quality. Now I have this incredible opportunity of time. It is “do or die” time for this dream of mine, and- I want to be able to say I actually chased after my dreams.
There will always be excuses that I can make, but this time the door is wide open for me to really do this. So here I am, just me and my laptop taking the first step…blogging, again.
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